Samantha.
Did Eli reject me? They drove all the way out here to ask me that? Why didn't they ask him, and if he refuses to answer, dies he have a reason? Why does it concern them?
"No." I admit.
As soon as the word leaves my lips, they grunt out of frustration.
"Sheesh. Is it that bad? Didn't know I was that unlikeable."
"It is bad!" Gabriel whines.
Annoyed, I reach for the door handle, but the child safety is on. Even so, Trisitian nearly jumps in the back seat to stop me.
"Sorry, don't go yet!" He pleads.
"Why are you here?" I sit back into the seat with a huff.
"It's Eli. He's been losing it the past few months." He anxiously runs his hand back over his hair.
"Losing it?" Worry laces my words, seemingly causing Gabriel to shift uneasily in his seat. Him and Tristian look at each other for whether or not they want to disclose any more information to me.
"If you came all this way to NOT tell me, I will definitely find a way to have you both neutered!" I hiss.
Their mouthes hang open in disbelief.
What, they can't believe a little human could be so fiesty? Well, my short fuse today surprises me, too. Usually, I had more patience with people, but for some reason, these wolves bring another side out of me. An irritable one.
"Ok." Tristian sighs in defeat, again slicking back his hair and resting his hand on the nape of his neck.
"Well?" My eyes dance between Gabriel and Tristian both hesitant to start talking.
"His wolf has been fighting for control, and he's having a hard time containing it." Gabriel finally confesses.
A lump grows in my throat, and my hands get slightly clammy.
"Can you elaborate, like, what's that have to do with me?" They look at me curiously. I use both hands to point at my face. "Helloooo, human here."
"Our wolves have a mind of their own. They aren't just there." Tristian sighs. "Look basically since he didn't reject you, his wolf now knowing you're his mate and sorta where you are, he is trying to break free and find you. There's a pull that you can't feel because you're huma-"
"Me wanting to see him all the time and dreaming about him, is that the pull?" I interrupt.
"Most likely." Him and Gabriel look at me wide-eyed as if this is unheard of for a human. Or maybe, from hiw hisnmother acted, they aren't used to their kind being mated to humans.
"So then I feel the pull, too." I awkwardly hug myself, wrapping my arms around myself defensively awaiting judgment for my confession. I haven't told anyone how much I've longed for Eli since he dropped me back off at the bus stop months ago. It makes me feel weird and ashamed that I want a stranger so bad. Yet to be honest, I fucking dreamt of him. I'd have 30 panic attacks back to back if it meant he'd hold me against his chest everytime. I touch myself every other night in the shower, or in bed thinking of him wondering what beautiful body he hid beneath his clothes.
"You may not know this but for one of us that pull is at least ten times stronger. For a dominate wolf like an Alpha, like Eli, it's even worse. He needs you and his Luna that's the only way he can stay balanced."
At this point I am both excited and scared. My place is destined to be by Eli's side but there is no place for me where Alex isn't and couldn't be. I find myself wondering if it was selfish of me not to finish that rejection those three months ago. I tried to say the words he retracked in his bedroom but it wouldnt come out. Instead I jumped out the car and rushed home. Knowing I was causing him pain was heartbreaking for me. I'm such an idiot.
We sit in silence wondering what to do next, as I run my fingers through my hair.
"You cut it." Gabriel whispers.
"What?" I look over at him. As I meet his gaze I notice specks of black in his eyes. He is staring at me and my hair intensely.
The day after I got back I decided to chop my hair into a bob just to get rid of the orangey copper color and grow out my nautral choclate brown. I cut it just at my jawline. These months later it was already shoulder length and with trimming in between, one more chop would probably remove the dyed ends completely. My hair grew extremely fast for some odd reason. Maybe it was my new hair routine?
"Oh, yeah." I shrug. "Needed a change."
"It was nice long, but this is pretty too." He reachs over taking a lock of my hair in his hands and gently pulls his hand back so that my hair spills slowly back into place.
I could feel his eyes trailing over me and I'm beginning to feel uncomfortable. I glance over at him again. Shockingly his eyes are completely consumed by black, his lips fixed into a seductive smirk.
I look back over at Tristian. His green eyes locked on mines. He holds no emotion in his face. He looks calmly between me and Gabriel, probably trying to assess the situation. I could hear the Gamma's uneasy breathing as he tries to keep himself situated. I am too afraid to look at him again.
TRISTIAN.
The human isn't what I expected her to be. She isn't tiny, but she isn't tall. Her hair is short, somewhere between shoulder and collarbone length. She is also curvy but not heavy set. She is fit and strong. She either works out a lot or works somewhere that asks a lot of her physically.
Her eyes are a honey brown that glows gold in the sunlight. Her caramel skin was a little pale, but nothing a nice vacation wouldn't fix. I watched her through the rearview mirror as her and Gabriel approached the car. The way she walks makes me instantly want to kneel at her feet.
Each stride she takes is taken with elegance and confidence. She is beautiful, a great fit for a mate, and a great fit for an alpha like Eli. She'd of made a graceful, powerful Luna, once changed, of course. If only she kept her legs closed.
To my understanding, she has a child with another human, about 2 1/2 almost 3 years old. Humans are not allowed on our lands for the safety of our species. Mates are an acception. An adult human can easily be changed to one of us. Well, not easily, some die in the process, but they have better luck than a child. There's no chance a child would survive a transformation. This is very unfortunate for Eli and his position. If he wants his true mate, he will have to leave the pack and renounce his role as Alpha. Which he would definitely not do. Not for a human. He has to reject her. It is a no-brainer, so we thought.
After seeing Samantha, I understand why Eli is risking going feral instead of rejecting her. I see why he skips breakfast, lunch, and even dinner sometimes to sit in the library and go over every book written on werewolf law and history. I see why he'd be locked in his office all day. It takes a whole crew of omegas to clean and repair his destroyed office afterward. His wolf goes wild, and to keep him contained, Eli locks himself in the office before the wolf breaks free. It is only a matter of time before we will no longer be waiting for the man to shift into his wolf but be waiting for the wolf to shift to the man. It is getting harder and harder for him to fight his wolf and keep control. He is spending more time trapped in his office and trapped in his wolf every day.
But what can I say? The little lady definitely is more than a looker. Having a child doesn't change that. Also, something about the way she smells like a freshly bloomed meadow, I want to frolic between them legs. Stuck in the car with her, and her amazing scent is making me nervous. I can't remember how many times I slicked my hair back, a habit I picked up when I was anxious. Around others and in public, I am usually more of a stoic. Being the beta of the largest pack in the states, you always need to show face, no weakness. She has me fucking weak. What in the world is up with this human?
Though vaguel, I found myself opening up to her about the scariest most traumatizing experience of my life. Majority of my friends don't even know the real reason for my scars. Everytime someone askes I tell them it isn't any of their concern, or I dismiss it with a joke. Most were scared to ask and though they stared I never felt like I had to acknowledge their looks or explain myself. It isn't that I am insecure or ashamed, I just don't want to keep reliving such a moment. In front of her I don't mind. It felt great being vunerable for the first time.
Seeing her worry about Eli, even though I should feel proud his mate cares for him, my Alpha, leaves a salty taste in my mouth. I don't like it one bit. How odd? I find her scent arousing, her pouty lips tempting. How can she smell this good? I thought only a mates scent attracts their mates. But, she isn't mines, she is Alpha's. Yet I sit here arguing with my wolf that she is not our mate. If he can't tell how can I?
"Do you smell that, Gabriel?" I mind link him. He doesn't answer.
I look over at him and almost lose all the composure I have left. His eyes are completely black. His claws are cutting into my back seat. He is staring at her like he wants to take her and mark her right fucking here. Shit, I might have to kill him to do it first.
My eyes trail over to hers and lock on.
When they do, I want nothing but to protect her. A moment ago she was in charge, telling us she'd have our balls if we didn't tell her what she wanted to know. Now, the woman before me is defintely human. She shrinks into herself terrified of the wolf beside her.
"Stand down." I mind link Gabriel. Nothing. Even though I outrank him it doesn't help.
Samantha still staring at me must of noticed my eyes cloud over because her head tilts to the side like a confused puppy. Wrong move. The jesture causes her hair to sling over to one side exposing the right side of her neck to Gabe. He has a clear view to place his mark.
A possessive growl leaves his lips and I watch as his canines enlongate. Samantha stays frozen in place too scared to move again incase it triggers Gabe to attack.
My Luna is in trouble for sure.