Jules:
Emotions. There were so many emotions filling him at once, squeezing into every gap, every vein until he was ready to burst. He could feel so much anger, crushing sadness, giddy joy, but he couldn't tell if any of them were his, if anything was ever his. It hurt so much, it hurt, it hurt, it hurt, it hurt. He couldn't think, couldn't feel his body, couldn't feel the hand intertwined with his own. He wanted to feel it, to feel something concrete, something his. But he couldn't. He could never really feel anything, he was hollow after all. No matter how much he tried to fill himself, he would never be whole, never right. Broken, he was so very broken.
He could feel the red strings of all those minds, teasing him just out of reach. He could pull them, could make all the voices go silent, could make them all burst. But he wouldn't, no. He would never do that again because it was wrong, he was wrong. When he served Cassius he was taking from those who deserved it, but to do it here to these strangers just because they were loud, that was stealing. He didn't want to be a thief, not again. He had to be normal.
His body was a cage of rotting weak bones, barely enough to contain him as everything tried so desperately to escape, but it couldn't, he couldn't. The more he did, the closer he was brought to death. The prospect of silence, of quiet nothing had seemed quite appealing, but that was not normal either. No, what reason did he have to wish for the abyss after what he had done? He was just crazy, yes, that was all. He was sick in both body and mind, so it was better he kept quiet, better that he did not act on those thoughts. Now he could barely think, the voices growing louder and louder, making his head throb under the weight of them.
By the time his knees hit the ground he was already falling into the darkness, he was drowning, drowning, drowning. He welcomed the emptiness filling his broken lungs, the air so sweet he could barely breathe it in, and then, the darkness had washed him away, smothering him in a blanket of false peace.