Taking a deep breath i ask my self "who's emotions are these? not me i barely know abby are these the emotions left behind by the old leo? no i don't remember anything about the real leo jackson i don't have his memories so i can't have his emotions this is not emotion well i my self do feel pity for abby well i guess acting like a jerk dose make me feel a little shitty other then that uh what is this? its almost like this body remembers abby even though i don't this body is calmer around abby... huh?. Even though the true leo jackson is not effecting me in any real way but this his body still acts different around other people huh? how amusing...
Laughing a little because when i found my self in this young emo kids body i really though leo had no effect on me looks like i was wrong this kids body did have a 00.2% effect on me huh?.
The reason i don't like to get people near me is because at least in this world they can become my weakness and i don't like having weaknesses even in my last life i stayed away form others i hated liabilities and weak people and most of the times people use each other anyway even family... in fact! i belive family is the worst in times of need even a stranger might help but family? no they mock you or act dumb because well no one likes helping but everyone wants help right?
Fuck up world we live in good often feels much harder than being bad. Opening up to others is far scarier than simply shutting ourselves offself... fuck why am i doing a whole in internal monologue! thing ugh stop thinking just move leo... ugh yeah leo i am leo....
*I stand up and i crack my neck casually and i mutter "yeah I am Leo not a emo boy who has no life" and i start to walk out of my room taking slow steps and i walk near abby's room and i knock on it a few times but abby dose not open*
I spoke loudly "hey abby if you don't open i go and drink the acid in the bathroom" and a few seconds later i move my feet up and i slap my feet on the floor making stepping sounds and then fast abby opens the door and i look at her with a smile on my face and i walk inside her room without asking and abby wanted to push me back but i just slip past her and i sit on her bed her room was much cleaner then mine even her window looked like it was wiped cleaned! and abby speaks "what do you want and why are you here!".
I take a deep breath and i speak "hey sis i am sorry ok? i know i have been bad and i think you know me the best you know. How fucked up thoughts i have... i last morning i was awake i thought a lot and well i made my mind up i am going to try to change i don't want to be a a useless brother anymore...." and i speak in a soft ton and my head was down and in fact right now i was acting a little but still i felt like some of the things i said were so near my heart or the real leo's heart i almost felt emotional....
And abby just looks at leo for a second everything in her eyes was gone the anger the annoyed and even the frown on her face right now she just looked like a girl who had finally seen her big brother after years... and abby almost had water in her eyes and she looks away fast and abby speaks in a shake voice "ok then fine just next time tell me before you go anywhere else stupid..." and i stand up and i walk slowly closer to her and i look at her and i gentle hug her without thinking i hug her shoulder gentle and abby just hugs leo tightly and abby sobs slowly...
*I did not know why i hugged abby it was a need? emotion? what was it? or was it just the face of a girl who had been trying so hard to carry everything on her back... i did not know why i hugged abby maybe i never know but i know this much i form that point on started to treat abby as my real little sister....*
And after the little hug i smile at her and then abby pushes me out of her room and i smile looks like abby still dose not like acting like a girl around me and then well after that i take a bath and i change in to the new cloths i bought the evening goes by i was going to go out and test with omnitrix but well i did not do that i just stayed at home with my little sister and i even helped abby in making dinner which shocked abby and then after eating a warm dinner after what it felt like weeks of struggle i felt like i was at home or something i felt a little better for sure....
And at the night i speak "um abby i have a little bit of money i am working a part time job just wanted to let you know you can stop working ok?" and abby looks stunned again and she speaks "what job?? which idiot took you! in??" and i was stunned to and then i speak in a annoyed ton "well i got a job which pays well here is the money and also this idiot brother of yours is not truly useless ok!" and i pull out 200$ out of my pocket and i put the bills on the table and abby on the other hand was too shocked to speak abby really did not believe her brother leo could ever get a job which actually pays!
And abby speaks in a shake voices "what are you selling drugs leo!!!!" and i blink fast! it almost felt like i got punched with air my face flinching by abby's question and i speak "no! i did not sell drugs where would i even get the money to by the drugs in the first place! i really did work ok? dumbass" i stand up and i rush to my room and i left the 200$ on the table and abby for the first time seems to have a small smile on her face and abby mutters "he works now? stupid...."
And after i lock my room door i sit down on my bed and i don't even think about what happened in the past few hours i wasted them? no i needed that mentally at least my mind has been over thinking and so much more ugh anyway test yeah test i was going to test with the aliens in the Omnitrix... i push up my hoodie sleave and i turn the dial of the Omnitrix and then i twist it till i get to the alien i want...
BANG..... BANG..... BAND.....
Just as i was about to hit the omnitrix my wardrobe shakes hard and it sounds like someone was stuck in there and well i just now remember i mutter "fuck how did i forget? ugh! now this is a problem uh he should not die right? hey no he be fine i just take him to the punisher in the next morning yeah" and i look back at the Omnitrix and well i get a idea well i need to test a few aliens and i have a test subject right inside my wardrobe.... well i be a real bad person if i did anything to that man right? but think about it that man also try to steal form me so this is fair right??....
*i twist the dial head of the Omnitrix and i keep twisting till i find the ghost looking alien and i push the dial head in and then a green light fills the room and a second later i feel different but still like my self*
'When i first got the Omnitrix i wanted to badly test out all the aliens but i did not have the time but now i do have time and also a test subject and Ghostfreak was one of the aliens i wanted to test badly if you really think about it Ghostfreak was so powerful that ben as a kid could not use him because the writers of ben 10 made Ghostfreak way to strong , Invisibility, Intangibility, Flight, Ghostly Powers, Fear Inducement, Superhuman Strength and even crap like Regeneration! and don't even get me started on Possession and Control! If vilgax was in space and if ben could actually use Ghostfreak... i am pretty sure Ghostfreak would eat vilgax like he was a sushi....'
'Anyway lets start the first text dose my mind have any weird thoughts?' and after flying around my small room and thinking a lot i don't feel a change in my thoughts at all in fact my mind seems more clear then anything well makes sense in the ben 10 show the explanation for the weird stuff with Ghost freak was that the Omnitrix was not reconfigured yet so the Omnitrix was in a incomplete stage that's why Ghost freak could not only effect bens mind and body Ghostfreak could even get out of the watch and this explanation makes sense considering in ben 10 Omniverse ben could use Ghostfreak without any problems and the reason for that is because by that time the omnitrix not only had been reconfigured it had also been upgraded...
I speak and my voice was haunting cold "Ok now time for the real testing" and i move my hand up and i try to move the bedsheet with my mind... and a few seconds later it dose happen the bedsheet dose move! and i then fast make my room cleaner with telekinesis and after making my room look like it was out of a 5 starts hotel i open the wardrove doors with telekinesis again and then the thug who try to rob me 'max' falls down on the ground the poor guy looked like he was crying? or dear...
It's only going to get worst...